The Gut Box

Just wanted to elaborate on the Gut Box for TheBlackNewYorker. There is a restaurant in Tallahassee, and more recently in Gainesville, that is pretty popular with the college crowd and locals alike. Their menu consists solely of chicken fingers. Menu You can have a chicken finger sandwich or a box. The Gut Box is extremly popular, as it consists of 4-5 chicken strips, fries, texas toast, cole slaw(which i never eat..ewww)and a special sauce(i dont know what it is, but they have hooked it up..kinda like thousand island mixed with something else...it is the bomb tho!). Now this is one of those spots that stayed open really late, so after a night at the club the line would be down Tennessee street, just to get this box! I cant even describe it to you, but just be sure anytime you are in Tallahassee or Gainesville, look it up and make a pit stop...It will be well worth the trip. Ive linked just a few examples of Guthrie Lovers out there...
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Long Weekend.....

Well it has been a very long weekend... First of all, those of you that commented, thanks, I enjoy the luv, but just have not felt up to writing... The big news that I found out last week is that Im expecting... I have mixed feelings about it right now. I couldnt utter the words, even to myself until i knew how V felt about it. He took it fairly well. I actually took a test on my own last weekend because I needed to know first. I have been feeling like pure crap for the last 2 weeks. And I kind of hinted to him that something might be up, but I didnt want to let on that I already knew. I know, sneaky as all outdoors, but I thought it would be better if we appeared to find out 2gether. So I took a test with him, after hinting around that I had not been feeling too good, and that I was lil late. To sum it all up, we found out, cuddled, and actually had a great day. Then the yesterday the tables turned, or he woke up or something! He is kinda distant, and I can understand, as I did not contemplate having another child either. So I am just letting him deal with it all and get used to the idea, while I suffer in silence(nauseau is a mutha, not to mention wanting to sleep ALL DAY!!). I am at work right now, feeling a bit better, not too sick, but still very sleepy. Wow, this has almost turned into a pregnancy journal overnight. I always wanted to write one for Killa, and I did sorta, in one I had handwritten, but nothing public like this. Anywho...I think i will nap under my desk with all the dust mites and cables(kidding)..Until the next time....

Im Back

Ive been gone for a minute now Im back on the scene...lol...Charley took a turn away from Tampa at the last minute, but by then, I was long gone to Tallahassee for the weekend. A fun time was had by all...Got to eat some soul food...Something I dont cook too often. And the famous Gut Box(Guthries Chicken Box...All they serve is chicken fingers box or sandwich, with fries, coleslaw, texas toast, and a special sauce..mmmhmmm, not as good I recall, but it hit the spot. Ive actually been home sick for the past 2 days...did not feel like loggin on tho..At work now, still sick. I found out some disturbing news, and Im not quite sure how to feel about it at this moment....I cant even speak the words, much less think about it. Anyway, maybe I will write later, I just dont have the drive right now...Until the next time...

A storm's abrewing

Well Charly is headed over Cuba now, and from the looks of it, that will not slow him down. So V and I are taking Killa away from the drama, heading to Tallahassee. Bonnie gave them a lil sumtin sumtin earlier today, but they are in the clear for now. I am at work right now, but am leaving in less than 10 min...No work tomorrow, as we are located right off the water. It's become pretty serious, very quickly. Windows are being boarded up, everyone is stockpiling food and water, gasing up....Off to do my thing now...Until the next time....

Stormy Weather.....

Hurricane Charley is headed str8 for us it seems...It may not hit us directly, but I know that we will feel his wrath for sure. Right now, he is slated to cross Central FL sometime late Thursday, early Friday.. Bonnie is headed towards North Florida, then they are both headed to wreak havoc on the east coast....They should have been named Bonnie and Clyde...Just waiting now to see what Mr Charley is gonna do, so we can make some moves...In the words of G, Ill keep you posted....

Coincidence?

Ok...So I have been waiting on this T&E(travel & entertainment) reimbursement check from our division offices. We had some training out of town and they t&e'ed out food and travel expenses...Mind you this was not a 20, 30 minute drive, nor was it just one day. This was a good hr and a half drive, each way, for 5days straight...To 3 different places! My 2 coworkers(both white) got theirs fairly quickly, about a week and a half ago. I, though, am still awaiting mine. I waited a few days before I inquired about this, but this is a couple hundred dollars that a sista would like to have in her pocket... So anyway, it turns out there is no receipt of my expense report anywhere! There is no other copy of the report(and thats my bad, i was rushing to get it in..the one time I dont make a copy something happens!), Ive turned in all my original receipts, and they will not take the copies(I did this for my receipt to keep track of what was spent, so I am basically screwed. Anyway Im talking to another co worker, who happens to be black, and it turns out he is still waiting on his. He did not know that everyone else from our training class had already received theirs...We laugh it off, but of course there is that underlying thought that this was done intentionally! Now Im not into blaming "the man" and all that crap, but we were the only two of the darker persuasion, and everyone else from the class had long received their checks. As a matter of fact, someone from accounting came down and actually delivered them personally, to each individual from our class. Now after a couple of days of being patient and waiting for someone to hand over the goods, I was finally approached by my supervisor(bless his heart) who was ready to write me a personal check from his checkbook. He was able to get some things moved around, and actually got me more money in the process(which was so much sweeter), an approval without the actual receipts, and an apology for the long wait. Now as I sit here and look at my new form(i made a copy this time), I am still a little skeptical. I also wondering if my man is gonna get his str8, and if so what was the deal behind his....If they tell him the same story they told me(went from it never being received, 2 my sup and the gm signed off on it and it was turned in late, 2 another individual processed it and the main person filing them didnt know it, 2 once again never being received)then I will have my answer....Until the next time.....

In Love.....

I just felt a rush of love for V that let me know that being IN love never fades. We actually just had a quick lunch together...Funny, we used to do that every day, literally. Those were the days; now they are few and far between. Never have I had someone that just gets me like he does. I dont have to BE anyway with him. I didnt really understand that until today. We were just strolling thru the mall and it was such a simple thing to do, but there was just so much in that one hour that solidified our love. It can be unnerving to know that someone can know all the intricacies of me, but at the same time, so refreshing. I am blessed to have him in my life, to have him as the father to my child, as my life mate. I only pray that I can give him back what he has given me in my life, tenfold. I also hope that we can show Killa what it means to love and be loved in this cold world. Until the next time.....

How much more petty can we get....

Senseless Killings

I have been following this story, as it is occurred a few hours away from me. I know people get killed daily, but this story was a little bit more senseless because of the supposed motive. An Xbox and some clothes! Come on...I mean I cannot comprehend being that upset over these items! So much so, that I decide I am going to not only beat the person who took them, but anyone else who stands in the way!! I am speechless...

Can you see the difference??

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[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? :::	Taryll
Birthplace :::	Florida
Age :::	28
Age you act :::	35
Current location :::	under the pile of work on my desk
Eye color :::	hazel
Hair color :::	reddish brown
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? :::	righty
Zodiac sign? :::	the goat...capricorn
Height? :::	5'9
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality :::	Black, Indian(dont we all got Indian in our family), Irish...Who knows what else!
Your hair :::	Thin and fine, sometimes frizzy
Your fears :::	How I will die, losing my husband or child
Your perfect room :::	Sage walls with a window seat, lots of pillows, soft music playing, and a wall of books
What you practically do in a day :::	Monitor calls, coach and train
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse :::	Yea, Whatever
Phrases you overuse :::	Ya know, I dont know
Your first thought when you wake up :::	Is Kai up??
Your greatest accomplishment :::	Having my child
Something you want to do :::	learn to play the piano
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke :::	Pepsi, but more recently C2 by Coke
McDonald's or Burger Kings :::	McDonald's fries, BK Whopper w/ cheese, Spooners(ol skool)
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera :::	Christina(that gurl is DIRTY!)
Chocolate or vanilla :::	Swirl
Adidas or Nike :::	Nike
Black or white :::	Black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) :::	Bills
Burgers or hot dogs :::	Burgers
Egypt or France :::	France
Rock or rap :::	Rap
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke :::	Cigarettes-never, MaryJane-used to
Cuss :::	Not anymore(trying not to anyway)
Sing well :::	I dont make the dogs howl...
Sing in the shower :::	No
Talk to yourself --a lot-- :::	Um...Yes. no one else will
Believe in yourself :::	Yes..I AM THE GREAT ONE!
Like taking these longass surveys? :::	Not really, but bored..
Play an instrument :::	No
Want to go to college? :::	Been there, done that
Want to get married? :::	If my husband doesnt mind....
Want to have children? :::	Maybe 1 more
Think you're a health freak? :::	Hardly
Get along with your parents :::	Yes, on a full moon
Get along with your siblings? :::	Sometimes...There are 5 girls..What do you think???!!??
Think you're popular :::	Wth the computer geeks...
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state :::	No
Drank alchohal :::	Yes
Smoke :::	No
Get high :::	No
Done any drugs :::	No
Eaten an entire box of oreos :::	No...Whole box of Famous Amos Chocolate Chip Oatmeal Walnut tho
Been on stage :::	Yes, sort of..Had to do a skit in a training class
Gone skinny dipping :::	No
Been dumped :::	No
Dyed your hair :::	No
Stolen anything :::	No
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest :::	Tasha
Loudest :::	Vickie
Most shy :::	None of them
Blondest :::	I am, really I can admit it
Smartest :::	That would be me as well...LOL...Probably Van
Kindest :::	David
Best personality :::	Vickie
Most talented :::	Myesha
Best singer :::	Vickie
Most ghetto :::	Lisa
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) :::	Tasha
Pain in the ass :::	Latrice
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style)):::	Tasha
Funniest :::	Vickie
Best person for advice :::	Van
Dependable :::	Van
Trustworthy :::	Van
Druggie :::	Tasha
Most likely to end up in jail :::	Tasha
Person you've known the longest :::	Vickie
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream :::	Few nights ago...Probably sexual
Last nightmare :::	Few weeks ago...Someone was chasing me or something
Car ride :::	This morning. Took Kai to school, Van to work, and then me to work
Last time you cried :::	Last week I think...Im very emotional
Last movie seen :::	I, Robot
Last movie rented :::	Lord of the rings 3
Last book read :::	Ain't Gonna Be the Same Fool Twice
Last word said :::	It smells good too...
Last curse word said :::	Damn
Last time you laugh :::	20 min ago
Last phone call :::	An hour ago to Van
Last CD played :::	Alicia Keys Diary
Last song you listened to :::	Golden by Jill Scott
Last annoyance :::	Growling stomach
Last IM :::	On corporate AIM, my co-worker, discussing another co-worker(you know, gossip)
Last weird encounter :::	Being hit on by a co worker
Last person you hugged :::	My son
Last person you yelled at :::	Probably my son
Last time you wore a skirt :::	Sunday
Last time you've been evil :::	A few weeks ago to my husband
Sarcastic? :::	Probably less than 30 min ago...That happens a lot...
Last time you fought with your parents :::	A few years ago
Last time you wished upon a star :::	Maybe a year ago...
Played Truth or Dare :::	A few years ago
Spent quality time alone :::	Whoa...Its been awhile!
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM :::	Yes..A few coworkers
Do you feel lonely :::	No
Ever TP'd someone's house :::	No
How about egging someone's house :::	No
Do you not like dislike not like me? :::	????? Yea ok...Whatever
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? :::	Em is def for a white boy...50 is aight..He has his days
Yo Momma :::	so ugly, her picture is on the inside of a Roach Motel.
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? :::	OMG right now!! And she is kinda healthy too, so thats prob some good eating...LOL
What do you think of George Bush? :::	I dont think of him...
Any secret fetishes? :::	hmmmm, check the next ?
Do you like to wear chains? O_o :::	Only during sex
How many languages do you speak? :::	2 if you count kiddie language
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! :::	Hell yea!
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you =P)) :::	One more round!!!

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It's a beautiful day....

in the neighborhood, a beautiful day to be neighbors....Wont you be mine??!!??

Feeling giddy and silly this morning.


That is all....Until the next time....

Blessed

We went to the Kingdom Hall this morning. It was refreshing, but Killa was a lil antsy and cried quite a bit, so we left early. I felt very blessed to be there and share in the knowledge with the other brothers and sisters, but V went in with a scowl on his face from jump. The fact that Killa was crying and disrupting the meeting, and he had to take him outside a few times did not help matters any. We drove home in silence, him, probably upset that he did not get to enjoy the talk and aggravated with Killa, and me, not wanting to let go of the blessed feeling i'd had. We came home and started cleaning the apartment, and he voiced his feelings for the way Killa was acting. I did not disagree, as some of what he said are the same things I have said b4, so i let him talk, and just nodded my agreement and continued to clean....

I just got done having my weekly bible study. That was very satisfying as well...The more I learn about the Bible, and the Witnesses, the more I know that I have found the Truth. Im sure there would be a lot of debate about it, but I am a very logical minded person, and everything that I have learned since my first bible study has been logically explained and just makes sense that that is how God made it to be. This is definitely a journey for me and I just pray that I continue to draw closer to Him as I progress in my studies...V is actually the one that first told me about it, and got me my first bible study. I feel bad that he is not progressing like he should be. It has been a quite different scene than the KH and congregation in Tallahassee. There is a lot more color up there, and a lot less in the congregation we visit here. I would like to be in one that has more color as well, so I feel him on that, but until we relocate, there is not much we can do about it, unless we drive across town. I think once we move into the house, the KH down the street from us will probably be a little more colorful. We just need to find a congregation where we can grow as individuals and as a family. That is something we cannot be divided on.

No movie so far this weekend...Irs been raining pretty heavily here, so really all I want to do is stay in anyway. V and Killa are both knocked out. I am still energized from my study, so decided to check some things out...monitoring some dls i had going...they are taking forever!!! I actually need to be doing some research on this business idea I have been playing with, but I am feelin rather lazy right now..dont really feel like looking at facts and figures right now...maybe Ill just design my business card and surprise V when he wakes up(designing is his thing). Yea..I think Ill do that.

Sunday dinner????? What to cook????!!!??? I need something rather simple today, because i didnt take anything down this morning. It has to be something that can cook while i do my thang with this card. I really want some fried chicken tho...MMM MMM MM! maybe some read beans and rice, green beans? mmmm some biscuits! Sounds like Popeyes huh! Not! This will be all homemade...Actually i think that is the menu for today..Maybe a peach cobbler too(now that will probably be Sara Lee..lol...). Now Im really getting hungry, so let me sign off for now and make some moves....Until the next time...

Found...

V has found a great tasting new beer...Kinda reminds me of Heiny, but with a smoother taste. I am sitting here in the penthouse, trying to dl some stuff...i know i aint right, but they need to take it off the internet if they dont want it to be accessed. Killa(lil man) is out like a log, seems to be coming down with a lil sumtin...Luckily he does not sick very often..Actually his babysitter commented on that same fact the other day; how ironic that now he IS sick. Shes the bomb with him tho, and I appreciate that because good providers are hard to come by. I will really hate to take him away from there, because its such a nuturing environment for him, but I am anxious to get him at a regular daycare/school setting. Right now, unfortunately(or fortunately..im not really sure) he is not around many african american kids. the sitter is a west indian from Guyana...She watches Killa, and 2 lil white boys, sometimes one of her nephews. I notice when he gets around my sisters kids, he is not as rowdy or as loud as they seem to be. Now this is good sometimes, as I am not one for a lot of noise and nonsense, but then again, its like he does not relate to the lil black kids...Am I just reading too much into it???!!!??? I mean, my sister is a lil ghetto for my tastes, even tho we grew up in the same environment(ghetto as it is..lol), but of course we choose different paths in life. I love her to death, but there are some ways that she could stand to broaden her horizons a bit... Of course we are two individuals, so that explains it, nuff said. I just look at my niece and nephew and realize how much different they are from Killa. At any rate, I do want him to be around "his kind" so to speak, but I have seen some really messed up lil kids, and its not their fault. Like the Bill Cosby comment is definitely true, but I wouldnt limit it to just the black parents because it goes all around. There are some real ghetto white people too...i beleive they call them "trailer trash"..Anyway, I want Killa to be as diverse as possible, and he seems to know how to deal with the suburbs, so now its time to teach him how to survive in in the ghetto..lol.

He looks so at peace lying there... I should be lying down myself..Ive been pretty stressed out lately with this car situation. V and I discussed the possiblity of another car, but I dont know if we need to put that on us right now. This house is coming up pretty soon...We are slated to be out of our apartment at the end of October, and the builders negotiated our closing so that it all coincides with that. That way we wont have to do month to month or something silly like that. A car payment is exactly what we DONT need right now...Well I am off to find something to watch on those 10 million channels Ive got...Until the next time....

My BFF(lol)

I just heard from my BFF, aka Pepa... We were roommates in college and have gone through many things together over the years. To our select group of friends(one in particular) we were known as Salt-n-Pepa, cause im light skinned, shes dark skinned(ingenious huh!! lol) Anyway I was just thinking about her, that I had not heard from her, and low and behold, I get an email from her. Glad she wrote, cause I worry about her, and she will always be my BFF(she knows...lol). I wish you were girl, cause I have yet to find another like you...I told her about the blog, so i hope she joins in and adds to the drama! anyway, its about that time, V should be here, waiting in the parking lot i hope, cause i am ret to go! Pepa I love you gurl if youre reading this... Until the next time...

Video

Check out Jill Scott's video. Im glad she is back!!
Golden

Movie Night..."Collateral" perhaps??

Current mood: Happy
Current music: Golden, Jill Scott

I was checking out 106&Park today and Jamie, Jada, and Tom all made an appearance...it was pretty hot. Jada, my girl looking gorgeous as usual...Jamie, tripping always, and Tom.....hmmm...i think he was a bit uncomfortable. i think he needed to just relax a little. ive always enjoyed his movies, and thought he was a cutie, but today he lost some cool points..LOL. Maybe he was just nervous around all of our folks. Overall though, it was a pretty interesting show, and it made me want to see the movie that much more. Id like to check out the Ray Charles movie Jamie is doing. That should be kinda nice...

Just came from getting my hur did....Nothing special. just a relaxer and a wrap...At my desk at work now, decided to come in for some more OT...as long as they give it, I shall take it! I work in the cable/telecom industry, where my department basically writes up and enforces the technicaland quality standards for our help desk reps. I actually started out on the help desk...got tired of that quick! I wanted to move over to the IT dept, but once I got married and had my son, priorities changed quick... The IT guys are on call always, and while they are salaried employees, they do not make a lot more than I make in my mid level management position, and Im still hourly, loving it! Its a great company to work for, great benefits, plus comp services that they provide to the central fl area...broadband internet svc, digi cable(like all 10 million channels, plus 1/2 off payper views), digi video recording svcs(is da bom..like tivo), plus we just added voice over ip phones to the lineup. I love this place! Now what was my point to all that???!!??? Oh..im her for OT, helping out the help desk troubleshoot cable modems, wirless routers, and internet connectivity issues altogether. They make it easy for me to say yea ill come in for OT because they take such good care of us...Anyway, let me enjoy it while its quiet and review for my studies. Until the next time....

Just got paid...Friday night....

Ok....It is so time to get up out of this piece! I could use a cold one right about now...Sit back, relax, chill awhile... Snuggle with V and The Good Son....I actually am contemplating going to check out Collateral. Itlooks very promising. Although I have been quite disappointed with the summer lineup this year. Almost makes you want to join the bootleggers! But I have read some good reviews about this flick, and would like to see Jamie Foxx do his thang, as he is always a trip... Wonder what V is doing now.... He works at a private college here in Tampa, and fortunately has had the privlige of having a four day work week with it being summer sessions. We had lunch today, but all that consisted of was a trip to the bank, bill paying and a kiss on the cheek...

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Rick James dead!
Natural cause....WTF!

Great Photos

I have always had a passion for art and photography, even though I have no skill for either, LOL(I was more into theatre, acting, singing, dancing).... But I wanted to post a photography contest presented by OkayPlayer. It features a few choice photopgraphers and their submitted work; also their prospective personal webistes as well... Photos Hope you enjoy...Back to the cotton fields...Until the next time....

Check it out....

Teedra Moses, in stores August 10th(unless you bootlegging!)....Nice addition to the rotation. She has a pretty decent voice, nice tracks, and the words actually might say something! Im listening right now(dont ask!) and have heard a few that I quite enjoy...Anyway check it...Until the next time....

Pregnancy deadly...

Pregnancy deadly

Ok between this case and scott peterson, i am beginning to think that being pregnant might not be the way to go lately... in both cases, it appears that the husband was living a lie the whole time, but took the easy way out of the situation and got rid of the wife. it makes you wonder what goes through a person's mind, anyone, male or female, when they can actually take their hands and murder someone like that. i mean are we all just on the verge of insanity, with time bombs ticking in our brains, waiting for the right trigger to set us off?? i would like to think that one does not just go into these relationships as the above men did, contemplating the murder of their wives. i know there is the concept of premeditation, but these are people that seemingly appeared normal in all aspects, and then, OOPS MY WIFE IS DEAD... Then all kinds of secrets and lies come to surface. Does this mean that you should never trust anyone with your heart, soul, mind, body, and God forbid, your life? Should I be keeping one eye open, with on hand on the glock, cocked, ready to shoot to kill my hubby in case he snaps?!?! I really dont know.... Until the next time....

Nothing....

Not much is going on at the present time...Just wanted to stop in and check my spot..I had a visitor!!! YAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!! Someone cares!!! Oh..I also think I got hit on today....It was a little unsettling, because I did not know how to react. I mean I think I can turn a head or two, but it's like once I said the proverbial "i do" you would think that it is written on my forehead that I am hitched. Neither one of us wears rings(more important was us getting a house for our family than to show the world that we belong to each other by the symbolistic status of those rings...not saying i dont want mine, cause i do ;) but i like the fact that we are able to move towards the dream of owning our own home.), but he seems to get hit on more...even when they know he is married, whereas i seem to be wearing a flashing neon sign stating the fact. i dont need the attention(ok you got me, i am an attention whore and i want all the worship and praise!!) but honestly it's just been weird not to have that happen... So I did not know how to comment..you know i had no witty comebacks or flirty innuendos to throw at him like i did in my carefree days of college. At any rate, it did make me blush a bit..lol...ill have to tell V to stay on point cause I still got it **snaps fingers 2x** LOL...Until the next time....

Rainy Days

At work....Its very dull and dreary today.. The rain is encircling us it seems. Our building sits out on a causeway, surrounded by water and the occasional office building or restaurant, leading to a long bridge. Our building is glass all around and its amazing the things you'll see from our 6th floor view...water spouts, dolphins, schools of fish..all these things you never really think about and just take for granted. Unfortunately, we also are privy to a small beach so we get to see it all, literally! I am feeling content and rather happy today, despite the fact that my car is still out of commission. V(my hubby) and I have been getting along pretty nicely. I tell you tho, this marriage thing is no joke... We've known each other for 7 years and yet there are still so many things to learn about this person. Ive always heard that the first 3 years are the hardest, and I can attest to that, fa sho! I only pray that we get better with time...Having lil man is a blessing though, because we will always have that in common. We had a bond before that, and now it is even stronger with the shortie. Right now as I am writing this and staring out the windows, I wishing we had all just taken the day off and snuggled up in bed together, watchin cheesy daytime tv, or a overrated movie.... We dont have enough of that, family time. I am hoping as we make that progression into the new house that things will become a bit slower and we can sit back and enjoy each other and just relish the days that we are given together. Anywho...back to the J O B. Gotta stay productive... ;)

Time Zone Headache

Current mood: Tired
Current music: PC fan

Ok I dont know if i am just exhausted, blind, or just plain dumb... I sat here for the last 45min to an hour trying to get the correct time zone for this blog... i swear to you it was not working at all! I was getting some off the wall times, like 6am and crap. Then low and behold, i choose one and all of a sudden its perfect...Crazy!

Anyway I am waiting on my honey to pick me up. i have been racking in OT lately, and it will come in handy im sure... I am overly exhausted and cant see straight when i leave, but hey, i got money in my pocket. LOL..No seriously, i had to take advantage since my department does not allow for it. I saw the opportunity, so i gladly took it.

Wondering now if dh(dear hubby) is gonna be tripping about something. Things could be all peachy then all of a sudden...SNAP! LOL...Always petty, but I feel him sometimes, I can be a handful. we're the same sign also, so that doesnt make matters any better. we can get along beautifully for awhile, then all of a sudden we're butting heads. see...now thats exactly why i need my vehicle....dont get me started on that again!

And the drama unfolds....

Current mood: Frustrated
Current music: PC fan

Ok so I am sitting here at work, mindlessly browsing the net, as I help our help desk out and earn some OT while in the process... Then it hits me..I HAVE NO CAR TO SPEAK OF RIGHT NOW!!! My car conked out on me this past Friday(timing belt broke), so now I am stuck car pooling with my main squeeze until it gets replaced...Not to make it sound like that, because its not. He is great, I love him to death, but I do enjoy my time alone, and unfortunately, my car(94 Maxima) was one of those places where i was all by myself. I drive a good 45 minutes to and from work every day, so that is some valuable time to really think, ya know.. I think that's why Ive always like long trips too...You can just sit back and let your thoughts flow freely, and gather them back together, all in the span of one trip. Anyway, this is a major dilemma because his car is not the best(93 Accord)and is probably not up to all the pressure we are putting on it now. My car is going to be EXTREMELY expensive to fix...so now do we just fix it and hope the new parts dont overwork the old ones and end up causing yet another catastrophe, or do we splurge and get a new car altogether??? As Im sure some of you out there with kids know, that is not as easy a decision as it may seem...For one, we are currently in the process of building our first house. That is expensive all in itself.. For another both of our cars have been paid for for a very long time, and I cannot fathom having a car payment suddenly, no matter how bad I want to flex in that 745i...ummmm yea right..but I hope you feel me. And lastly, but certainly not least, are the kids. They are very well taken care of, all of them. The step kids are a little older, than mine, who is 14months, but they all have different needs and different things going on. So you see my predicament? This is frustrating, to say the least. Maybe I need to just set it off like my girl Jada did...that would solve all these petty problems ;)

First Post....

Ok so this is my first official online journal... I never thought I would get into these things, but as the internet now ownz me, I felt I had no other choice. LOL..Well actually I have been reading some pretty interesting journals from others lately soI decided I'd add my drama to the mix. Ok on the fa real tip..I just needed a place of my own. I am married, going on 2 yrs in Dec, with a 14 month old lil man(he ownz me fa real...), and 3 stepkids(they dont all live with us, but even still...the drama!!). So this is my spot, to come and drop my thoughts on those days I dont want to be bothered(those have been pretty frequent as of late ; )), those late nights when I actually outlast my hubby and child and am up til 1,2,3am, or just because i get that jones to put it all on paper. So whenever I get that itch, you'll be hearing from me..Will check in later..TTFN