Long Days...

It has been a hot minute since the last time. This tiny child growing inside of me is wreaking havoc to my entire body and mind! I have ALL DAY sickness, can barely eat, am extremely exhausted as soon as I step out of bed, and cant seem to hold a thought for longer than a few minutes. But all that said, I do so enjoy being pregnant. There is a surrealness to the whole 9 month journey. I find myself mesmerized by my expanding waistline, gently cupping my beautiful belly with my hands at random throughout the day....Constantly glancing in the mirror at my rounded, glowing face, seeing this baby shining str8 through me already it seems. Its amazing...I am actually scared, eve though Ive done this once already. I know what to expect, but it's like I know things will be different. I think my biggest fear is afterwards. What happens when we bring this new child home? How will Killa react to this new person? How will V and I be once this is all in our face? Will I be able to handle it all? Devoting more time to my studies so that I can teach my children who Jehovah is, being a capable wife and mother, being a strong black woman? Questions that run through my mind as I try to unwind. I have faith in Jehovah and I know I need to rely on that and place it all in His hands. It is just very hard wrapping your mind around all the potential issues that will come with this change. There is a lot to adjust to.... Until the next time....